I have something to get off my chest. When I first started my blog my main intension was to make it a diary. A journal of my life including the raw, ugly sides of it.. I think because I wanted this to be a platform to teach and inspire I kinda put a stop on the whole journal thing but once in a while its cool to talk to you guys so feel free to comment below so we can chat.
So for the past couple of weeks I kinda been forcing myself to grow up at a very fast pace. I mean, I am super mature for my age. I am 18 years old and my mentality is 25 lol. But I’ve been trying SO HARD to be this tough, strong person and not show any sign of vulnerability. I feel like that’s where everything goes wrong.. It all goes left when you try to be something that you are not and honestly guys I am not perfect all the time. I have days when I think if I’ve made the right decisions? If moving to a different state was the right move and I don’t regret anything I just feel a bit rushed.
This applies to everything, If you are going through a tough moment when you feel kinda stuck and I don’t know why but when you are in a situation where it feels like there is not a light at the end of the tunnel you feel like there is absolutely no way out.
Today in the afternoon I was scrolling through my Instagram and I bumped into this 18 year old basketball player who got a full ride to go to a top university and he died because he was diagnosed with cancer, it was stage 4 and the cancer was very aggressive. I don’t know him but that Brought tears to my eyes because life is so short but we see it as a never ending journey. Sometimes we forget that life is SO SHORT.. We live our day to day life so mediocrely not knowing that today is the only thing we have guaranteed.
We don’t know if we will wake up tomorrow morning, we don’t know if we will make it to work or school but we just keep doing the same thing everyday. What keeps me sane is my faith. Knowing I got Jesus and he is there yesterday, today and tomorrow keeps me hopeful. Life may not be perfect, I might feel regretful or sad but that never lasts long..
Thank you for motivating me, inspiring me & loving me everyday.. So thankful for the FAMILY I created on the internet.
I love you,